BABY.. i miss you badly. Faster come back!!!!!
Am waiting for you!!!
Love you...
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o my god!!! i gave my brother a *nagging+scolding session* just now. I have never done that to my brother before in my entire 19 years of life. Which means that i am really angry for he things he should do and should not do!!!
Why can't he just stick his butt on his the chair, eyes on books and do the last minutes study for his upcoming O level which is just 3weeks away??? How come til now he still don't know how to think for his future. I know is very hard to concentrate and stay focus. Like when i am doing project, i will slack and walk around the house not wanting to face my project. I really understand how he feel, but at the end of the day you still need to get things done!
I know some people may think that O level = no big deal but to mi IT IS and i want my brother to do well. I want him to have no regrets and chose what he want to study after that. His path and his future,but yet he is still slacking around,sms his gf,play games. He done everything except study. I advice him as i sister and a person who have been through this O level *period*. I know it is very tough and require alot of determination and focus. BUt yet these are he lack! I really can't stand the sight of him doing what he should not do so i gave him a good scolding to wake him up!!!
Haiz... I just don't understand how did he end up becoming like this! ARGH!!! Is it because of his realtionship? OR something else? Or he don't dare to face it? IS he afraid or toonervour or don't know how he should start his study? I have been holding myself back and keep telling myself to relax, not to scold him. I always believed that my brother will know how to handle thing and managed his studies well. But what i saw was totally opposite of what he said!!! My brother was a smart kid since he was young and never have problem handling his studies. So my parents wa very proud and was not worried for him. On the other hand, i am the one who is having tution since i was primary 3 and my results was all RED. This is the reason why my parents don't pin high hopes on me. Honestly , i Am very proud to have a brother like him, because he is very undertsanding and never let us down on his studies. But this time round, the things he do really make me disappointed. Haiz... He should be preparing for his Os by now but what have he done? NOTHING!!!!! He i very sensible but i don't hy this time round he can't think!
Another thing is i am not very happy with his gal. She call every now and then. When my brother never reply her, she call. When my brother came back home from school , she called. When he is eating, she call. In the morning, she call. When my brother was doing homework,shecall.O my god.!!!!!! ARGH!!.. I understandshe miss my brother but this can't be the case!!! My brother need time to study and she know this is the critical period for my brother. I told him to tell his gal that and asked him to managed his time properly. It is normal for their age to fall in love, we have been through this stage before but not like this!!!!! My parents and my grandmother haveknow about them. I told him that don't ever give my parents and grandmother the chance to say:" see, i told you not to go into relationship. Look at your O level result, this is what you have done!! Badly. Because of your reationship, you lose focus". This is what i don't want to heard from them if something was to happen. I told him all this. All i want from him is to focus on what he should now and leave everything after his O. After his O level, he want to talk,sms,play game for the whole day, no one will stop him. I tols him that my parents never request or require him to scold how many As, but what they want for their son was toscore well and get what he want. I told him this:" just do your best, don't leave regrets and blame yourself for not doing well or prepare earlier for your Os at the end of the day. The future is yours, no one can decide for you. I know you have heard this word alot of time but still i must say. Chose the course or the JC you want and don't let *them* chose you! Don't give youself the chance to regret!"
As a sister, i have said and done all i should. I can only help him in geo and ss. This is all i can do on the behalf on my parents and as a sister. Hope he understand and give his best shot through this difficult period. The whole family want the best for him and we are all behind him!
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Wuhaha... As everyone who have noticed, i have successfully changed my blogskin!! Haha... This must credit jan jan for guiding m along the way. Thanz babe!!!!!
okok.... I miss cliff very very very very very very very very very much!!!!! He is away on a trip to KL for shopping purpose since last thursday. Sobsob.... Actually is a 3days 2 night trip but he extended it because leonard cousin wants to bring them to watched car racing. He love car!! haha.. So they stay for another 2 days... AH!!! Finally, he will be back tomorrow!!!! yeah!!! But i still miss him badly these few days. *shy* wei wei wei.. No choice ma...haha... He went with leonard n leonard's gf.. Can you imagine? That means he i sort of like *gooseberry* and they are satying in the same room!Haiz.. Felt so bad. If i can go, then at least i am there for him and he is not alone with them. Am really not a good gal because i felt that every time he nedds me, i am not by his side. When his good friend met with an car accident and passed away, he is very depressed and sad.But i can't accompany him to the funeral, i know he wnt me there but on that day my parents *take leave* and we went out. Haiz...........
Actually they have planned to go for a short hoilday for a long time but only till last week then finalise. The sad part was.. I CANNO ACCOMPANY CLIFF!!!! ARGH!!! I am so sad and really feel very bad because he wanted me to go too. And i wanted TO GO badly!! BUt i can't. To me it was as good as disappointing him and i really feel very bad and sorry too. I hint and asked my parents many many time saying that i want to go on a short trip togenting with my friend to relax but they wont allow. Haiz... i wonder when is the time i can be on my own on a trip with my friends and cliff? I know he is sad and disappointed that i can't go with him. I fely very helpless and can't fiure out what i can do to make him feel better. He sms me a ew time when he is in KL and i am glad that he is enjoying himself... hehe..
I hope i can go with him on the next hoilday if they are palnning to go anywhere for a short hoilday. Love you baby!
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