queenie pammie

china ah beng!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-03-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

lalalla.... i am stil figuring out how to upload pictures to my blog!!1 aj... but i asking now.

Today was a painful and boring day for me because it's a Monday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Which means Monday BLUE!!!!!!!!!!! I need to drag myself off my cosy little bed.When i get down i was freezing like nobody buiness!!! AH!!!!!! It's a orture to wake up early in the morning at 6am for people like me. Back in Singapore, i used to wake up around noon! But now? O my god!!!!! Kill me........ But stil we have to get to class and attend our 1st lesson our second week here. I am dozing off in class and the meat ball aka jun was also sleeping. haha........ But i must say the lesson was fun, Philosophy. I know more anout china's philosophy now and it's totally different from the west.

The best part of the day was i spilled my whole cup of coffee early in the morning and it means TABOO to me! haha.... We whe for lunch outside sch. The food is nice but the other customer in the stall was horrible. They are china ah beng. ARGH!! they talk like they are quarreling, they shout like they never shout before! They don't have manners! They ask the lady boss to speed up and ask her not to care about our orders..... Are they that hungry? 7 month is not here yet! please, they are just like hungry ghost. They even threaten the boss that if she don't speed up, they will just leave without paying up. I though china is slowly opening up, but with this ind of people i think is hard. They really spoilt the image of china. We ordered 8 dishes include 2 big bowl of soup! It cost only 54 ren ming bi, so it cost around S$10 which means we only have to pay S$2 per person. wuhahaha.......

okok... i need to stop here, because i need to write testi for my loved cliff. haha.. his birthday today.

i can't believe it!!!

2007-03-10T11:35:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the long-time never blog thingy. But now, i have decided to blog back!!!

Guess what?? I am in China now for my stu trip. The day have finally arrived and i am still alive and kicking. So don't worry!!! I have been here for 1 week or so. Last friday, i have update my blog but due to the stupid internet connection here, i failed to publish it.I promised i will write a quick summary of the past1 wseek but not in this entry!

Haha....And i need to sign up a photobuket account to update all the beautiful picture that i have took here with all my buddies,... hehe... The reason being........ I FORGET MY OLD PHOTOBUCKET ACCOUNT PASSSWORD!!!.

haha...can't stand myself! Yesterday was a short day for us because we only have "self-study" lesson til 11. So after that we all went shopping!!! The stuff and food in China was Real Chaep. For example: one big bowl of porridge coast S$ 0.40. Can you imagie??? I was telling jun they all that when we are back at Singapore, we will find everything expensive and start or calculatiom. O my god. Moreover , it srems like their salt and oil here is FOC!!!! The food here is very very extreme salty that it willl make me drop hair!! wuhaha...

okok.. Anyway, before we head to town, all of us (jun,me,carmen,jin,jan) went to do manicure!!
It was very nice andthe skills and design can be comparatable to Singapore! It was damn cheap. All of us do fake nails andnwith alots of design!! i will upload the picture very soon and with all our design, it will cost around S$80 to S$100. But it cost 80 to 100 ren ming bihere, Which is equal to S$ 16!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We head town and we went to thid place which is simliar to Bugis and Fareast. It is a combination of Bugis and far east!! And the stuff there was damn cheap and we need to get out of there to stop outself from buying anymore!!

The big thing that happen to me was i received FAKEＣＨＩＮＡNOTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okok... i will continue this entry when i come back. hehe.

baby

2006-10-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

BABY.. i miss you badly. Faster come back!!!!!

Am waiting for you!!!

Love you...

what happen to my bro???

2006-10-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

o my god!!! i gave my brother a *nagging+scolding session* just now. I have never done that to my brother before in my entire 19 years of life. Which means that i am really angry for he things he should do and should not do!!!

Why can't he just stick his butt on his the chair, eyes on books and do the last minutes study for his upcoming O level which is just 3weeks away??? How come til now he still don't know how to think for his future. I know is very hard to concentrate and stay focus. Like when i am doing project, i will slack and walk around the house not wanting to face my project. I really understand how he feel, but at the end of the day you still need to get things done!

I know some people may think that O level = no big deal but to mi IT IS and i want my brother to do well. I want him to have no regrets and chose what he want to study after that. His path and his future,but yet he is still slacking around,sms his gf,play games. He done everything except study. I advice him as i sister and a person who have been through this O level *period*. I know it is very tough and require alot of determination and focus. BUt yet these are he lack! I really can't stand the sight of him doing what he should not do so i gave him a good scolding to wake him up!!!

Haiz... I just don't understand how did he end up becoming like this! ARGH!!! Is it because of his realtionship? OR something else? Or he don't dare to face it? IS he afraid or toonervour or don't know how he should start his study? I have been holding myself back and keep telling myself to relax, not to scold him. I always believed that my brother will know how to handle thing and managed his studies well. But what i saw was totally opposite of what he said!!! My brother was a smart kid since he was young and never have problem handling his studies. So my parents wa very proud and was not worried for him. On the other hand, i am the one who is having tution since i was primary 3 and my results was all RED. This is the reason why my parents don't pin high hopes on me. Honestly , i Am very proud to have a brother like him, because he is very undertsanding and never let us down on his studies. But this time round, the things he do really make me disappointed. Haiz... He should be preparing for his Os by now but what have he done? NOTHING!!!!! He i very sensible but i don't hy this time round he can't think!

Another thing is i am not very happy with his gal. She call every now and then. When my brother never reply her, she call. When my brother came back home from school , she called. When he is eating, she call. In the morning, she call. When my brother was doing homework,shecall.O my god.!!!!!! ARGH!!.. I understandshe miss my brother but this can't be the case!!! My brother need time to study and she know this is the critical period for my brother. I told him to tell his gal that and asked him to managed his time properly. It is normal for their age to fall in love, we have been through this stage before but not like this!!!!! My parents and my grandmother haveknow about them. I told him that don't ever give my parents and grandmother the chance to say:" see, i told you not to go into relationship. Look at your O level result, this is what you have done!! Badly. Because of your reationship, you lose focus". This is what i don't want to heard from them if something was to happen. I told him all this. All i want from him is to focus on what he should now and leave everything after his O. After his O level, he want to talk,sms,play game for the whole day, no one will stop him. I tols him that my parents never request or require him to scold how many As, but what they want for their son was toscore well and get what he want. I told him this:" just do your best, don't leave regrets and blame yourself for not doing well or prepare earlier for your Os at the end of the day. The future is yours, no one can decide for you. I know you have heard this word alot of time but still i must say. Chose the course or the JC you want and don't let *them* chose you! Don't give youself the chance to regret!"

As a sister, i have said and done all i should. I can only help him in geo and ss. This is all i can do on the behalf on my parents and as a sister. Hope he understand and give his best shot through this difficult period. The whole family want the best for him and we are all behind him!

I MISS BABY VERY MUCH!!!!!

2006-10-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

Wuhaha... As everyone who have noticed, i have successfully changed my blogskin!! Haha... This must credit jan jan for guiding m along the way. Thanz babe!!!!!

okok.... I miss cliff very very very very very very very very very much!!!!! He is away on a trip to KL for shopping purpose since last thursday. Sobsob.... Actually is a 3days 2 night trip but he extended it because leonard cousin wants to bring them to watched car racing. He love car!! haha.. So they stay for another 2 days... AH!!! Finally, he will be back tomorrow!!!! yeah!!! But i still miss him badly these few days. *shy* wei wei wei.. No choice ma...haha... He went with leonard n leonard's gf.. Can you imagine? That means he i sort of like *gooseberry* and they are satying in the same room!Haiz.. Felt so bad. If i can go, then at least i am there for him and he is not alone with them. Am really not a good gal because i felt that every time he nedds me, i am not by his side. When his good friend met with an car accident and passed away, he is very depressed and sad.But i can't accompany him to the funeral, i know he wnt me there but on that day my parents *take leave* and we went out. Haiz...........

Actually they have planned to go for a short hoilday for a long time but only till last week then finalise. The sad part was.. I CANNO ACCOMPANY CLIFF!!!! ARGH!!! I am so sad and really feel very bad because he wanted me to go too. And i wanted TO GO badly!! BUt i can't. To me it was as good as disappointing him and i really feel very bad and sorry too. I hint and asked my parents many many time saying that i want to go on a short trip togenting with my friend to relax but they wont allow. Haiz... i wonder when is the time i can be on my own on a trip with my friends and cliff? I know he is sad and disappointed that i can't go with him. I fely very helpless and can't fiure out what i can do to make him feel better. He sms me a ew time when he is in KL and i am glad that he is enjoying himself... hehe..

I hope i can go with him on the next hoilday if they are palnning to go anywhere for a short hoilday. Love you baby!

hmm.. is appearance that important?

2006-09-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

Just came across someone's blog today and the topic that person discuss this time round was "good looks buys you a date". Hmm.. i read the blog ,did some thinking and I found that is quite true.. When 2 strangers meet up, the 1st thing both party take into consideration was LOOKS!! Or some thoughts in their mind????

Eg: "o my, he/she look different from his/her friendster pic"
"o my!! he/she look much "bigger" in real life!"

Haiz..... this is how realistic this society is. Maybe some good souls don't agree that looks is that important during the 1st meet up. Character and the way the person carry themself is important! But miand cliff got discuss this topic b4, so what i found out was it's the man's ego that is making them this way! Guys!! hmmm.....

Nothing much to say, don't feel good today....

my programme of yesterday!!!!!

2006-09-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

wuhahah... okok..... Although yesterday i sleep the whole day, BUT is a very romantic and relax day for me.

Why????? haha... The reason is................. "drum roll" tata....... i went to cliff hse yesterday and all we did was SLEEP. Haha... Because the both of us didn't sleep that night before so the both of us was real tired. Lalalalalalalala.... *shy*..... I didn't know he did not sleep also till he message me 9 plus in the morning. Haha...... Then at that point of time i suddenly felt very sweet.. Wuhaha.. Don't ask me why , i also don't know how to explain where the sweetness come from... haha... lalalalala... So i reply him and we decided to eat breakfast outside his house coffee shop!!!!!! The malay shop where we had our breakfast was related to his lifestyle very closely,because his parents used to bring him there since he was a kid.Here come the main point!! I felt that i know him and his life better!!!! lalalalalaalala.... He told me alot of things about his past and everything. I really feel that communication is one of the key factor in a realtionship!!

After our breakfast we head back to his house and.................... his father was at home!!! AH!!!!!!Haha... I was so nervous because that was the first time i saw his father face to face!!!! Can you imagine how nervous and lost i am? Luckily, his father was ok and was busy doing gardening. iI said:" Hi uncle" . Haha... I realised that every father have their so-called "father looked". Hmmm......... Cliff and i chat and we talked about lots of things. Think we chatted for quite long and we decided to take a NAP! BUt who knows, we slept from 2 plus tilll 8 plus at night! Haha...

The sweet part was he was beside me and i was by his side. I mean saying goodnight everyday and u can only imagine how he look when he was sleeping or what is the feeling having him sleeping by ur side. haha.. Yesterday i really experinece it and the only thing i can say is sweet and very secure!

Although the only thing we do was sleeping, having your love one by your side is enough and is everything to you. Really very secure and relax! i find that the things couple do is very linited in SINGAPORE! THe reason being is too small here and the places we go is also very limited.

List of places and things couple do:

shop in town (orchard, cine,bugis etc..)
watched movie (plaza sin, town etc...)
eat lunch or dinner and the programme after that was either to catch a movie or just hang around
If both of them have the same interest, then they can shop for the things they like or do the activities they like
Hang out with a group of friends
Go to places that they haven't been to (eg. haven't been to the beach or some places with he/she)
Club together??
For those "sports-enthu" couple, they will engaged in their fav.sports together ( this apply to different "type" of couple as some have their own interest and lifestyle)
Play game?
hmm..................... supper??

Haha.. i really can't think of any. I feel that with him/her around, doin or not doing anything dosen't matter. MOst importantly is do both of you find that you have spend your time meaningfully. And the word "meaningful" means differently to every couple. For me, doing nothing just sleep and be by cliff side is already very meaningful to me because i can spend the whole day with him and is just that simple. haha.. Actually, going out and enjoy with your love one is also veri fun, but sometimes having some quiet moment just for the 2 of you is also very important. Both of you just quiet down and talk about things you want is a very comfortable and loving activities for couples!!!!!!!

1st day of work!!

2006-09-12T02:45:00.000+08:00

Firstly, sorry for the broken and low standard of english i used.. haha.... C5 for my O level English.. Haiz.. haha...

First day of work as telemarketer for prudential. Hmm.. how should i put it?? Nervous plus i felt that i am not suitable for this job. okok.... The neither the pay nor the working hours are the problem, but maybe is me which is thr problem. Wokin time:4 to 9, Pay: $6 per hrs, Actually is not bad and is quite relax too, but the problem with me was i can't bring myself to dial a phone number which belongs to a male client!!! AH!! Don't ask me why because i don't knoe the answer either. Maybe is has got to do with my character or my thinking. Ir is a thing that i need to overcome, if not i don't think i can carry on with this job.. haiz.. lalala.. haha....

2006-09-03T01:47:00.000+08:00

okok.... next!!! So i though he wanted to end the relationship or what because he really scare me!! For the things he said la... hmmm.... But everything was ok now... So there was an outing!!

We wanto to v'llage to eat after our lit test! Best part was cliff come along too.. wuhaha.. I was so happy... Why? hehe.. Because i can introduced him to all my sistaz and to let him know what are my friends like. I feel that is very important for a couple to know who they are mixing with and of cos, mine areall lovely ppl!!wuhaha.. For the st time cliff met my butch of frenz... everything was ok.. haha... And he saw Janice.. lalalalalala........ We stil make fun of her saying that Leonard never come. Wuhaha.. Overall the outing was fun and we went to walk walk. After that we spilt and we go off 1st... To where ar(secret) lalalala.....

okok... back to the topic i wanted to say.. I really find that is important to know ur their friend.. Why?? Hmmm.. i find that you will have a better understanding of him/her as in how is he/she like in when he/she is with their frenz... There ae some guys/girls behaved differently when they are with their gf/bf.. Some will even become a totally different person! o my god!! Is there a need? i though that who you are is who you are! No need to pretend or whatsoever... Isn't it tiring to act as a different person all the time ? Mi and cliff have discussed thia topic before and we find these type of person very faked!!!! What are they thinking.. I can understand that they wanted to potrate a better image when they are with their gd/bf but i think the correct thing to do was to let them know who are you, not who you are not... so take it or leave it!! If your guy/girl can't tolerate who you are, it means that you are not suitable for each other.

Trust me, probelms will start to surface not long after. Why? Because you will be tired of the "one" you are trying to be to pleased another party. Eventually you will start to ask yourself"What am i doing" Trust me.. It will happened!! So why pretend to be someone you are not to pleased another party and not finding another soul who love you for who you are! Isn't this better and comfortable. I myself have dry skin. Imagine a girl having dry skin, which means that the texture of my skin will be rough！I admit that i do feel uneasy about my skin, but what to do, i have to leave with it. Hey... i have been living with it for a whole 19 yrs.. haha... I am still who i am!! lalalalala

Before me and cliff start, he notice that my skin is sort of unusual。So i just tell him frankly about my skin condition. In my mind i was thinking, if he really mind then 4get it. But he don't mind!! haha.....I have asked him before and his answer was"i love who you are, not something that you don't have"hehe...love him... But i must say sorry to him cause of my skin. Not every guy can accept the fact that their gf skin is rough like don't know what! haha.. This is appearence i would say.. Just show who you are, if not he relationship will have loads of problems

sorr sorri sorri..

2006-09-03T01:29:00.000+08:00

wuhaha... a billion n zillion sorry!! hehe... havenot been writing up new entry since..........hmm.... i also don't know how long was that .. haha.. anyway... have alot of things to say...

okok... lets start with something more emotional ba... hey... love is a thing that is wonderful and not whether you are not good for that person or that person is too good for you!!! No such things!! (this is a message that i want to tell cliff ngiam!!) how come we are together in the 1st place? how come i will accept you? and how come you will chose me?? Normally, these are the question aked by either party in a relationship. Why? It's just because they are curious...Both parties need the other party to assure them of "something". Love is a important element in a relationship + chemistry+faith+trust...etc... So is not you are not suitable for me or whatsoever!!! Before you get into a relationship with someone, you muz hab that chemistry and LOVE there isn't...
Also, the basic understand of that person past and everything... I know by now i can't say i understand you fully.. but at least i can say HALF.... I know about your past and everything but i don't mind! I know how is your lifestyle like and what type of person are you!! But i didn't say i mind your lifestyle or whatsoever.. Because from the day i know you, i know your lifestyle is the way it is!! And if i mind, i will juz disappear and we are game over.. But i didn't.. Got it? Is just that simple.. Now i am with you means i accept everything and who you are... Plus, i know what i am facing with.. GOt it?? I don't mind at all.. So stop saying you don't suit my lifestyle........ We won't be what we are now if you say don't suit.. isn't it??

Argh!!!! this happened last week i think.. some misunerstanding happened between me and cliff... Just want to say that problems faced in relationship need to be overcome by the both of you... This is what the both of us think!! hehe.. lalala...

Love!!! shy shy

2006-07-31T23:38:00.001+08:00

haha...lalalalalala....
I just want to say: Cliff is MINE!!! ..........lalalalalalalalaa

Love!!! shy shy

2006-07-31T23:38:00.000+08:00

haha...lalalalalala....
I just want to say: Cliff is MINE!!! ..........lalalalalalalalaa

What happened to my mom? ARGH!!!!!!!

2006-07-31T13:13:00.000+08:00

o my god!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't what happened to my mom.... HAiz... i am so damn sad lo.....
sian....this morning when she wake up, she shout at me all of the sudden..... AH!!!!!!!!!!!!! She told me that my bao bei ham ham stink!!!!! Stink the whole hse.... Say they very dirty la, stink la, not clear la..... HAiyo... i clear veri ofthen le....They don't have smell de.... Don't know why only my mom smell it, not even my father lo...
Haiz....Then she shout and shout and shout early in the morning.... O my god... i never talk, because if i do,we will sure quarrel. What happened to her??What to do.... Right from the start she object, Because she don't like fur fur animals. But my father help me so i managed to keep ham ham...That time i was stil with lionel, he gave it to me as my bday present. So how could i not keep it... Futhermore they are soooooooooooooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just love them.... Although now me and lionel is no longer together but i love ham ham. I continue to keep then because i love them!! They are so cute. OH.. by the way...In my 18 yr of life, this is the 1st time i keep small animals which have fur!!!!!!!!!!! That time my mom allow me to keep because i am stil with lionel.But when she found out that we are no longer together,she keep asking me to give them away. She told me:"aiya.... don't keep them le la... so dirty...you no longer with linel le...just throw them.." WA!!!!! I was so angry lo....I mean i keep them till now because i really adore them, not because of lionel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN...Only my father understand lo.. MY mom was so unreasonable!!!!!!
Yesterday she have MAJIONG session...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! I think she lose money...If not she would shout at me in the morning when she wake up!!!!!! My mom is like that...So my whole family won't talk to her when she just wake up. Why??? SImply because she will just scold you for nothing. We have experience it for don't know how many times le... So we know... That's why i kept quiet just now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The sad part is she insist me to give them away.... I have no choice at all...SHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haiyo!!!!! i am damn sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorri sorri.... BLOG NOW LE!!!

2006-07-23T18:21:00.000+08:00

haha... hey guys.. i m so sorry that i didn't updated my blog for such a long time.. opps.... sorry!!..haha.. Jun told mi: "pam ah... ur blog got dust le la!!!!".... haha.. So... i decide to blog today after so long.. wuhaha.. haha.. okok...
Actually many tings have happened this few weeks.. Happy things of course..haha.. okok.. Firstly, i cleared 2 projects.. What a relief... BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There are more to come and i have loads of ah cheng's movie review haven write!!!.... ARGH!!!............ sian.... but die die also must finish it.
Lionel msg me last thurs... I deletes his no. so i don't know is him!!!.. haha.. but the no. look very famimlar to me... Then through my long process of recalling... yup.. i was sure is him.. haha.. Then when i went to sch, i told jun and carmen.. haha... they were like:"wad!!!o.... then what he said?" It's a casual msg which says:"hey, hope you are doing well... take care and enjoy your day."haha..... but i ignore it. So jun and carmen say i should reply back:" who are you?"wuhahaha........ I actually did, but he didn't reply.... haha.... hmm..... den i saw him at SIM on last tue....haha... BUt i feel nothing la... REALLY!!! I am ok le!!!haha..YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!lalalalalal....

Got to know this guy name Cliff...wuhaha... funni guy indeed...hehe.. HE s very very very noisy and friendly... Happening also, club almost every weekend..haha.... But overall a nice guy... Always say i fierce!!

To be continue!!!!

Another embarrassing moment for me!! Oh mY God

2006-07-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

okok....another embarrassing moment in my life again... AH!!!!!!!! guess what...haiz.... i falldown again!!! To me, falling down is ery very normal. I can fall down anywhere. BUt this time i fall down in front of alot alot alot of people!!!!
All this happen on last friday. Last friday was NP idol semi-final competition. O.. by the way, NP Idol is a singing competition organised by NP. So i was doing on this event for my Ray's project. I need to go to the semi-final to interview both judges and the contestant. So my group(jan,jin,carmen+chris) arrived at the convention hall half an hr before the whole event start. By the time we reach there, it's already 6, the whole event start at 6.30. Imagine how rush we were. But the best part was we 4got to get the TICKETSand all of us was panic. Why? It was because we have arranged to meet up with the organizer before the event start and the organizer have already told us that he will be very busy, so we must make our interview a quick one. But luckily, i called Zhen Yuan(my friend and one of the contestant) and he bring us in. Phew!!! What a relief.
Everything went on smoothly and i thought that everything is under control. This is when the BAd things happened to me. When me and jin was heading to the backstage to do an interview with the contestant, i trip and fall. AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The convention hall was full of audience at that moent. AH!!!! i really feel like dying lo. I was trip by the camera wires which was lying on the floor. I was so blind that i didn't saw it. Haiz... So i fall and my posture was UGLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can you imagine how embarrassing i am. It was in a convention hall!! It was very big and alot alot of people. Jin was stun by whatshe saw and she can to me after a few mintues later.. wuhaha.... The worst part is about the camera guy!!! HE was handsome and gentleman. BUt he saw me falling down... AH!!!!!!!!!!! At that pt of time i rally wanted to dig a hole and just hide in there. I quickly get up and the camera guy was shocked i think. When i get up, he asked me whether am i ok, i was so embarrassed and was blushiing away!!! haiz.... i didn't even turn back and i just say i am ok and rush off. Sign....
So i told carmen they all about it and they laugh til they drop. Oh my god!!!!!! BUT!! Carmen also fall down.. wuhaha... She stil remind us to be careful but she fall down when walking down the stairs..haha... Can't blame her, cause it was dark as she left the convention half way through. hehe...
I was joking with jin and jan that i shld stay calm and tell the camera guy that i sprain my leg so he will help me up.. wuhahaha,, *shy*.. haha.. But this is what we imagine la...wuhaha.... Just joking..haha... I wonder what if i really do that, what will happen....*dreaming* wuhaha.. can/t imagine..hehe...

List of where i have fall in NP:

canteen 1
convention hall
atrium
library
overhead bridge outside our NP( I always got my heels stuck, best part was it always happen in the morning when alot of student was heading to NP)
NP orchard
some stairs around NP

I think that's all ba.. wuhaha.......... haiz.. really very embarrassing leh... i always make a fool out of myself when and where there is crowd.. haiz. i don't know why. Hope i will be more careful nxt time.. hehe

i m so sad.... wad happen to England!!

2006-07-02T23:59:00.001+08:00

haiz... England is out of Wc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ytd, i go to Wei ting hse with zhen yuan and weiting friend to watch the WC. We are there to support ENGLAND!!! ah!!!stupid Ronaldo.... make mi so angry... i wanto say Porturgal play an ugly game... And England play the game well and with glory!!!! yes!!!!
AH!!!....... Ronney was send out with a red card... why? All that Ronaldo's fault!!! HE provoke Rooney!! When Ronney was trying veri hard to get the ball(he was half fallin half standing) and he accidentally step onto porturgal player. Of cos, that player fall n shouted, rolling in pain. But the referee didnt plan to give Ronney a yellow card, mayb a free kick to Portugal. But at this very moment, that Ronaldo come into the picture. He was talking to the referee in a very anxious manner, it is something to do with the accident.Then at this time, Rooney push Ronaldo right IN FRONT of the referee. HAiz.... but now is all too late, a red crad and Rooney is OUT. He shouldn't push Ronaldo in front of the referee. BUt i can understand. If i amRooney, i will also push him away and breakz his LEGS!! You are already in trouble and yet some busybody is adding saly to the wound. No wonder Rooney is so angry!With beckham being injured and Rooney being send off, the whle Emgland team was out of form!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But they played really well! England Rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When i know that is the penalty kick that decide who will be in for the semi-final, i know is gone for England. They never win in penalty kick!!!! It seems like a curse to England! haiz.. so ultra sad..
So i thought Brazil will play well and win the 3am match. But to everyone or even whole world surprise that they LOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really don't know what has happen to these 2 team.3 defender for Brazil yesterday, what the!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! From the way they play, their formation is out!! totally OUT!!! Seems like they don't want the cup! argh!! Thw winner of WC 4 years ago can't even go into semi-final this time round! ARgh!!! What a joke lo. Not only the fans of Brazil are disappointed, their country and poeple who is watchin world cup are so disappointes in them!! AH!!!!!!!!
Wc without Brazil is meaningless le la!!! So sad lo!! haiz...

i m so sad.... wad happen to England!!

2006-07-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

haiz... England is out of Wc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah!!!stupid Ronaldo.... make mi so angry... i wanto say Porturgal play an ugly game... And England play the game well and with glory!!!! yes!!!!
AH!!!....... Ronney was send out iwth a re card... why? All that Ronaldo's fault!!! HE provokeRooney!! When Ronney was trying veri hard to get the ball(he was half fallin half standing) and he accidentally step onto porturgal player. Of cos, that player fall n shouted, rolling in pain. But the referee didnt plan to give Ronney a yellow, mayb a free kick to Portugal. But at this very moment, that Ronaldo come into the picture. He was talking to the referee in a very anxious manner, it is sonething to do with the accident.Then at this time, Rooney push Ronaldo right IN FRONT of the referee. HAiz.... but now is all too late, a red crad and Rooney is out. With beckham being injured and Rooney being send off, the whle Emgland team was out of form!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But they played really well! England Rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When i know that is the penalty kick that decide who will be in for the semi-final, i know is gone for England. They never win in penalty kick!!!! It seems like a curse to England! haiz.. so ultra sad..

emotional day for mi...

2006-06-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

Today is a very emotional day for me... why?? hmmm... Actually i also don't know how to describe it. But i just feel very lonely today.
Honestly speaking, ever seens my relationship end, i have been feeling very lonely. Especially at night.I know my freids are all around me giving me support and the care. But is only at night that i feel this way.NOt during the day time. Is it normal? I know i should have let him go. I did. I really did. But at night i really cant control myself. I really miss him alot.. Alot alot alot... Spending 10 months with the person you love most, but suddenly he left you is a torture to me.
I chose to believe another party to feel the same. At least by thinking this way i will feel better. I know i shouldn't think of the past anymore, but whenever or wherever i come to a plzce or do something,i will thought of him. When i shop at Topshop, i will look out for male stuff and will think of him. When i shop at Zara, i will also think of him. When i passby Urban Male, i will also think of him. When i found some place which serve delicious food, i will also thought of him because he love food. When i was having BBQ with my gals at east coast yesterday, i will also thought of him. He will bbq the food himself and he will keep eating. When i wake up early in the morning, I will also think of him. Late at night i will wonder 'what is he doing now '. When i look at my hp, i will wonder'will he msg me today?' But the answer is NO. When i listen to songs the both of us love, i will thought of him. When i walk pass the place we have been to before, i will thought of him. During weekends i will also wonder'did he go out with his parents or with his friend'. Out of the blue, i will dayfream and think of him in school. Wondering where is he, did he have his lunch, where will he head to afetr lesson. I will wonder whether he is in the gym or outside with his friends. Did he work today? Is he careful at work and when he is working out? How was his result foe sommon test? Will he miss me?
i know i can't get all the answer, i know is no use thinkng, I know i want him to be happy, I know he want me to be happy. But i can't help it. Because all these have become part of me, become my daily routine, become my habits.

I know for him, he wont think of the past or wonder what am i doing now. Perhas, this is the different betwwen guys n gals. Is that so? I don't know, but all i know is i will need a long long time to et over. Don't ask me when, cause ido't have the answer too.

Maybe i am silly, but to get over it fast is not my character. Want me to chose, i will rather get over it slowly, bits by bits clearly. I wont rush to get over it, cause i know when i turn back i will still think of it. Why? The reason is is not clearly erase off.

But i wanto thank my sistaz (jun , jin , carmen , janice) and all my other friends who is by my side all this while.

Finally...finally...finally...

2006-06-21T19:03:00.000+08:00

wuhaha.... finally.. i started to post my 1st blog.. n tis is it.. hehe... qiao ling.. i post le!!haha.. after creating my blog for some times, tis is my 1st entry...
i offically announce tat my blog is ready for blooging n ready for u guys to post comment n tag mi!!! wuhaha..
okok... wad to sae...hmmm...hmm.....(thinkin..)
Initially,i tot tat havin n writingblogs can b veri time consuming. But slowly, i begin to find out tat.. hey.. u can actually express u feelin in a space lyk tis... ur pruvate space... a channel for ur frenz to know u better and to express urself..
Actually i have a blog in friendster,but tat was century ago. so i hab make up my mind to reali blog well tis time.. haha..
okok.... think i will end here.. AH!!! still hab nan nan project to do... (sian Sianz)
Finally my blog is not empty le!! wuhaha... jun.. jan... carmen.. qiaoling, yiting..pei jin... all whu hab seen my blog.. GIVE MI COMMENT N TAG.. ok....
*pammie need to do project le..so she roll off..*(lame)
ciaoz.....

2006-06-07T12:57:00.000+08:00

haha.. i am qiaolin.. juz tryin to post see whether can a not.. =)